ARGH!!!

Ok....so...haha.  This is the most painful waiting period I have ever had in my LIFE!!  I know I said I am being patient but holy moly!  It's hard to be patient when you want something so bad.  I am not the most patient person to begin with, and the waiting is driving me crazy!  Every time I say Im tired or that I don't feel well everyone around me jumps to "maybe you're pregnant!!"  As silly as it is, it gets my hopes up a little bit.  I took a pregnancy test today.  I have been super exhausted, feeling bloated, constipated (TMI I know),  my boobs hurt...I thought maybe....I didnt get over excited...but I had a little glimmer of hope...no dice.  I wasn't really super disappointed, because I knew in my heart it wasn't going to be positive.  My biological clock has become BIG BEN in the past 2 years...and now that we are acutally trying...it is clanging like crazy!!  I am praying for our miracle...praying so hard and so passionately for God to give us our baby.  This is hard...I know that 5 months isnt really very long to be trying, but it's pretty emotionally draining every time that little blue "minus" sign pops up on a stupid pee stick.  I can't wait until that "minus" sign turns into a "plus" sign and we can celebrate the beginning of our family.  I love my husband so much.  I will be so excited to have a little one running around like him.  Anyways...I am really really trying to be patient and just go with the flow...but Lord this is difficult! 

Thanks for Reading, Charity