I have a few New Year's Resolutions this year. Some of which are up to me, some of which, I am relying on God for.
1) Get knocked up! God and I will have to do double duty on this one...being healthier and passion are on my side. Blessing us with a miracle, on His. :-) So excited to see if we can keep this resolution!
2) Be positive. I have found myself being pretty negative lately...whaaa, whaaa, whaaaaaa. I need to say to myself "Get over it sweetie, life doesn't suck as bad as you may think it does sometimes. You have a job, a roof over your head, food in your belly and a family and friends that love you. Life, should be pretty damn spectacular from your point of view!"
3) Spend more time with my family. I love them so much!
4) Get the inside of the house done! It's been 6 months since we have moved and everything is still unfinished!
5) Take time to appreciate the little things in life (Kind of coencedes with being positive...but hey, might as well have it on the list twice)
What are your New Year's Resolutions??
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Monday, December 27, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Every Day- Rascal Flatts
You could've bowed out gracefully but you didn't.
You knew enough to know to let well enough alone, but you wouldnt.
I drive myself crazy, trying to stay out of my own way.
The messes that I make,but my secrets are so safe.
You're the only one who gets me, yeah you get me, it's amazing to me.
How every day, every day, every day you save my life
I come around all broken down and crowded out, and you're comfort.
Sometimes the places I go, are so deep and dark and desperate,
I don't know, I don't know
How every day, every day, every day you save my life
Sometimes I swear I don't know if Im coming or going,
But you always say something without even knowing.
That Im hanging on to your words,with all of my might and it's alright, yeah Im alright for one more night.
Every day, every day, every day you save my life.
Thanks for Reading, Charity
You knew enough to know to let well enough alone, but you wouldnt.
I drive myself crazy, trying to stay out of my own way.
The messes that I make,but my secrets are so safe.
You're the only one who gets me, yeah you get me, it's amazing to me.
How every day, every day, every day you save my life
I come around all broken down and crowded out, and you're comfort.
Sometimes the places I go, are so deep and dark and desperate,
I don't know, I don't know
How every day, every day, every day you save my life
Sometimes I swear I don't know if Im coming or going,
But you always say something without even knowing.
That Im hanging on to your words,with all of my might and it's alright, yeah Im alright for one more night.
Every day, every day, every day you save my life.
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Christmas
Is it just me or is Christmas not as fun as it used to be? I love the Christmas feeling, I love lights and family and giving gifts. But I feel like there is so much build up for Christmas and then when it gets here its just like any other day, and I kind of get disappointed. I remember loving the heck out of the days surrounding Christmas. Maybe it was because I had them off of school and just hung out with my family and played. I think adults should get the week off between Christmas and New Years too! I know we should celebrate the true reason for the season, but shouldnt we do that every day? Why yes! I dunno what to think...haha.
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Jingre Berrs!
I love Christmas time. I love cocoa and Christmas lights. Our tree is decorated with an eclectic mix of ornaments from Jay and my childhoods (?) and ones that we have bought since we've been married. We have one little tree in our yard that has lights on it and two of our windows with lights in them. Along with a multitude of sit around pretty things and handmade wreaths that adourn our walls and shelves. I love Christmas mostly because of the time we spend with family. Every year we get together at my grandparent's house for Christmas eve and eat dinner and play games and exchange gifts that we draw names for. Christmas day is my big brother's birthday and we just hang out and do whatever he wants to do. Sadly, this year he won't be with us. He is overseas in Iraq for 10 months, so I dont know what we will do. I know that you people don't care about what we do for Christmas haha...but oh well...haha. Happy Holidays Everyone!
P.S. the title is not a typo...can anyone name that movie?
Thanks for Reading, Charity
P.S. the title is not a typo...can anyone name that movie?
ARGH!!!
Ok....so...haha. This is the most painful waiting period I have ever had in my LIFE!! I know I said I am being patient but holy moly! It's hard to be patient when you want something so bad. I am not the most patient person to begin with, and the waiting is driving me crazy! Every time I say Im tired or that I don't feel well everyone around me jumps to "maybe you're pregnant!!" As silly as it is, it gets my hopes up a little bit. I took a pregnancy test today. I have been super exhausted, feeling bloated, constipated (TMI I know), my boobs hurt...I thought maybe....I didnt get over excited...but I had a little glimmer of hope...no dice. I wasn't really super disappointed, because I knew in my heart it wasn't going to be positive. My biological clock has become BIG BEN in the past 2 years...and now that we are acutally trying...it is clanging like crazy!! I am praying for our miracle...praying so hard and so passionately for God to give us our baby. This is hard...I know that 5 months isnt really very long to be trying, but it's pretty emotionally draining every time that little blue "minus" sign pops up on a stupid pee stick. I can't wait until that "minus" sign turns into a "plus" sign and we can celebrate the beginning of our family. I love my husband so much. I will be so excited to have a little one running around like him. Anyways...I am really really trying to be patient and just go with the flow...but Lord this is difficult!
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
So, OK....
This post may be T.M.I. so...just a forewarning ;-)
I have wanted to be a mommy forever. I wanted to be a mommy when I was 3 and playing with my dollies. I still, very very much so, want to be a mommy. I went off of "The Pill" February of this year, mainly because it was messing my body/hormones up in all sorts of ways, so we decided, together, that I needed to be off of it. We decided that we would be using birth control of the latex variety until it came time when we were both ready to begin trying for a child.
At my last doctor's appointment a few months ago, she asked me if I wanted to go back on the ol B/C...I said "no" because I felt like a raving psycho when I was on it, and those of you who knew what I was like when I was on it can attest to this statement!! She asked if I was comfortable if the situation came about that I would be pregnant and I said "Yes, very much so, provided I am ok health wise". She said that since I am in general good health that I would be fine to be pregnant, however I may get gestational diabetes while pregnant, even though I have very normal to low blood sugar as of now, and that a lot of women contract it while pregnant, even skinny minnies, so it's treatable. Ok, fair enough...So the past few months I have been living a more healthy lifestyle. I have always eaten pretty well, and I make sure to get all of the good food groups in every day. Portion control is the main issue with me. I love food...potatos and pasta being my favorite of foods (of course it can't be broccoli or something like that). Anyhoo...I am constantly moving during my 8 hour days at "the office" which has helped as well as teaching dance classes. So...we are taking care of that issue quite swiftly. I realize I will never be a small person, but I do know that I really need to be healthier...Issue aside!
Well...that time is among us. We haven't been "trying" -and when I say "trying" I mean like ovulation tests, body temps, pelvic positioning etc...-however we are not using any methods of prevention.
We have been without "prevention" for 4 months. I realize that in the grand scheme of things, 4 months is nothing. However, when you desperately want something, a week is a long time to wait, let alone months. For those of you who have been in this situation...does it seem like everyone around you is pregnant? Why all of the sudden am I surrounded by pregnant women? Have I always been and just never noticed because we weren't trying at that point? I see pregnant women everywhere now! What is the dilly-o? I have 2 pregnant co-workers, another who just had her little girl on Thanksgiving. I have about 100 (okay 5) pregnant friends. Plus the multitude of random women I see skipping around with beach ball bellies. It's infuriating! : D <--- (I say this with a smile, however) I dearly love my friends who are expecting, many of which are expecting their first, and I am absolutely thrilled for all of them. But, it is, at the same time, really hard. Going to baby showers and shopping for baby stuff with them wrenches at my heart, but Im so glad that I can be there for them during such a special time, and I know that if it were me, they would be there with me oohing and aahing over burp cloths and diaper rash ointment.
Recently, a friend of mine got pregnant "by accident" and decided to terminate. I was/am so furious with her about this. I was so so so very angry because something that I so desperately want, was "something that would ruin her life". (she didnt, and still doesn't know at this time that Jay and I are trying) I was heartbroken.
Even more recently, one of my very bestest friends received news that her and her hubby are expecting their first baby after almost a year of trying. I was and am elated for them, because I know what a long road that must have been. However, at first news, I was devastated, for myself for some reason. How selfish is that? VERY!! So, dear friend (you know who you are) I am sorry for not being the friend I should have been over the last few weeks of your amazing journey into mommyhood. I love you very much and I am truly, deeply happy for you. I apologize for my selfishness, however, after your long battle with this same thing, Im sure you can somewhat relate.
I am at a time of peace with this fight toward mommyhood. I have faith that God will give us a child when He is good and ready, and not a moment sooner. So, I will enjoy my hubs and my "passionate moments" without thinking "This could be it!!!" for at least a little while longer. As we begin our journey....wish us luck!
Thanks for Reading, Charity
I have wanted to be a mommy forever. I wanted to be a mommy when I was 3 and playing with my dollies. I still, very very much so, want to be a mommy. I went off of "The Pill" February of this year, mainly because it was messing my body/hormones up in all sorts of ways, so we decided, together, that I needed to be off of it. We decided that we would be using birth control of the latex variety until it came time when we were both ready to begin trying for a child.
At my last doctor's appointment a few months ago, she asked me if I wanted to go back on the ol B/C...I said "no" because I felt like a raving psycho when I was on it, and those of you who knew what I was like when I was on it can attest to this statement!! She asked if I was comfortable if the situation came about that I would be pregnant and I said "Yes, very much so, provided I am ok health wise". She said that since I am in general good health that I would be fine to be pregnant, however I may get gestational diabetes while pregnant, even though I have very normal to low blood sugar as of now, and that a lot of women contract it while pregnant, even skinny minnies, so it's treatable. Ok, fair enough...So the past few months I have been living a more healthy lifestyle. I have always eaten pretty well, and I make sure to get all of the good food groups in every day. Portion control is the main issue with me. I love food...potatos and pasta being my favorite of foods (of course it can't be broccoli or something like that). Anyhoo...I am constantly moving during my 8 hour days at "the office" which has helped as well as teaching dance classes. So...we are taking care of that issue quite swiftly. I realize I will never be a small person, but I do know that I really need to be healthier...Issue aside!
Well...that time is among us. We haven't been "trying" -and when I say "trying" I mean like ovulation tests, body temps, pelvic positioning etc...-however we are not using any methods of prevention.
We have been without "prevention" for 4 months. I realize that in the grand scheme of things, 4 months is nothing. However, when you desperately want something, a week is a long time to wait, let alone months. For those of you who have been in this situation...does it seem like everyone around you is pregnant? Why all of the sudden am I surrounded by pregnant women? Have I always been and just never noticed because we weren't trying at that point? I see pregnant women everywhere now! What is the dilly-o? I have 2 pregnant co-workers, another who just had her little girl on Thanksgiving. I have about 100 (okay 5) pregnant friends. Plus the multitude of random women I see skipping around with beach ball bellies. It's infuriating! : D <--- (I say this with a smile, however) I dearly love my friends who are expecting, many of which are expecting their first, and I am absolutely thrilled for all of them. But, it is, at the same time, really hard. Going to baby showers and shopping for baby stuff with them wrenches at my heart, but Im so glad that I can be there for them during such a special time, and I know that if it were me, they would be there with me oohing and aahing over burp cloths and diaper rash ointment.
Recently, a friend of mine got pregnant "by accident" and decided to terminate. I was/am so furious with her about this. I was so so so very angry because something that I so desperately want, was "something that would ruin her life". (she didnt, and still doesn't know at this time that Jay and I are trying) I was heartbroken.
Even more recently, one of my very bestest friends received news that her and her hubby are expecting their first baby after almost a year of trying. I was and am elated for them, because I know what a long road that must have been. However, at first news, I was devastated, for myself for some reason. How selfish is that? VERY!! So, dear friend (you know who you are) I am sorry for not being the friend I should have been over the last few weeks of your amazing journey into mommyhood. I love you very much and I am truly, deeply happy for you. I apologize for my selfishness, however, after your long battle with this same thing, Im sure you can somewhat relate.
I am at a time of peace with this fight toward mommyhood. I have faith that God will give us a child when He is good and ready, and not a moment sooner. So, I will enjoy my hubs and my "passionate moments" without thinking "This could be it!!!" for at least a little while longer. As we begin our journey....wish us luck!
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Christmas Questions- Thanks Em!
Christmas Questions!
This looked fun! I saw it on my friend's blog, You should play along too! Each question should have only a one-word answer. Here we go!
1. Your holiday decor: Traditional
2. The weather where you live this time of year: Cold!
3. Your favorite smell of the season: Cinnamon
4. Your favorite beverage of the season: cocoa
5. Something you wish you could avoid during the holidays: Shoppers
6. What you typically bring to the potluck: Pasta
7. What you wish people would stop bringing to the potluck: salsa
8. A word to describe how you feel about the word 'potluck': what?
9. What is on your feet right now: socks
10. How many layers you are wearing right now: one
11. Where in the world you would rather be right now: nowhere
12. Something that makes you feel invigorated this time of year: Christmas
13. Something that makes you feel challenged this time of year: Stores
14. A cold weather comfort food you crave: Gingerbread
15. Something you wish you were doing right now: Snuggling
16. Something you SHOULD be doing right now: Cleaning
17. Your opinion of snow: Wonderful
18. Your opinion of those big furry-looking hats with ear flaps: Warm!
19. A tradition you'll be sure to keep this season: Family
20. A tradition you'd like to start this season: Ornaments!
Thanks for Reading, Charity
This looked fun! I saw it on my friend's blog, You should play along too! Each question should have only a one-word answer. Here we go!
1. Your holiday decor: Traditional
2. The weather where you live this time of year: Cold!
3. Your favorite smell of the season: Cinnamon
4. Your favorite beverage of the season: cocoa
5. Something you wish you could avoid during the holidays: Shoppers
6. What you typically bring to the potluck: Pasta
7. What you wish people would stop bringing to the potluck: salsa
8. A word to describe how you feel about the word 'potluck': what?
9. What is on your feet right now: socks
10. How many layers you are wearing right now: one
11. Where in the world you would rather be right now: nowhere
12. Something that makes you feel invigorated this time of year: Christmas
13. Something that makes you feel challenged this time of year: Stores
14. A cold weather comfort food you crave: Gingerbread
15. Something you wish you were doing right now: Snuggling
16. Something you SHOULD be doing right now: Cleaning
17. Your opinion of snow: Wonderful
18. Your opinion of those big furry-looking hats with ear flaps: Warm!
19. A tradition you'll be sure to keep this season: Family
20. A tradition you'd like to start this season: Ornaments!
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Sunday, December 5, 2010
HOLA!
Holy smokes. What a trip these past few weeks have been. I don't even know where to begin....so I won't. This last week was sooooo effing busy. I hate working until 6:00pm...I feel like I have no evening left after I get home. This past weekend was our annual Christmas stroll. My girls danced at our high school scrimmage games and at the stroll as well. They did so well, and looked so cute in their Christmas shirts, and santa hats. They danced to Rockin' Around The Christmas Tree. Woo hoo.
Anyways, I don't have anything really exciting to say...as usual.
Thanks for Reading, Charity
Anyways, I don't have anything really exciting to say...as usual.
Thanks for Reading, Charity
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