Happiness!

I have been struggling with a deep depression.  I have been fighting it for about 3 years, but just recently I broke and wasn't able to retrieve myself from...well...myself.  I needed help.  In my last post, I tried to make light of my situation, but what I was/am going through isn't funny, and it isn't easy.  Now that I am recieving the help that I need, things are getting better.  I need to recognize that this will be a long process, and I need to be sure to practice patience with myself...because Im not going to get better over night.  Again I will say thank God for my husband, and supportive friends and family members.  

As a result of this depression, happy thoughts have been few and far between.  However, now that I am feeling a little better, I am going to post this.  (I "stole" it from a fellow blogger)

Things that make me happy

1) First and foremost- My husband.  He is amazing and has been SO super supportive through this ordeal.  If it's being woke up at 3:00AM because I'm up and crying...again....and just listening to me and comforting me. Or just making me smile when all I want to do is crawl into a hole and stay there for days.  He is my rock and I love him so much.  Words do no justice to explain the feelings I hold for this man.

2)Christ.  "Amazing love how can it be,that You, my King, should die for me?  Amazing love, I know it’s true.  It’s my joy to honor You."

3) Sunshine!  What a mood booster a little sunshine is!  With winter just finally getting over with and Spring on it's way over the mountains, we are recieving warmer days.  Though it's Spring in the Rockies and that entials rain and wind and the occasional early spring snow shower, I am warmed with thoughts of sunshine and summer on their way!  I have been taking patients outside on walks these last few weeks on sunny warmer days and they are loving it as am I...it gives me some fresh air and some much needed afternoon energy!

4) Thoughts of the future.  While the good Lord may not be ready to give us a child yet, I know that it will happen some day.  He is just waiting for the perfect time and I have faith that it will happen some day.  Whether that child is biologically mine or not, He will provide for us.

5) Dakota.  My pupples.  I love coming home to her, she's always so happy to see me and is so excited to come and sit on my lap and give me loves.  Like the saying goes "God...please help me to become the kind of person my dog thinks I am!" haha

6) My family...They are amazing.




Thanks for Reading, Charity

I'M MOVIN ON!!

So...I took my NA test today and THEY GAVE ME THE JOB!! YAY!!  Soo excited!  tofinally get out from under the thumb of the opressor. haha.  How dramatic right? Anyhoo...things on the job front are looking up. The personal life is still a bit of a mess...when my doctor says "ummm...wow...you should probably see a therapist"  I take that as not such an awesome sign haha.  (Apparently thoughts of homicide aren't normal? haha just kidding.)  Oh well, just another one of life's mountains and I am on my way over it and on with it!  Thank God for my husband and my family and supportive friends.  I'd probably be face down in a drained pool somewhere if it weren't for them.  haha. 


ANYWAYS....I excited for this weekend and Easter and having 3 days off of work.  Spring cleaning will be continued and hopefully finished if I can round up enough motivation. 

HAPPY EASTER TO YOU ALL!
Thanks for Reading, Charity

until then...

Hello all!  I hope life has been treating you wonderfully lately!  Spring is peeking it's head around the corner...for some of you it is probably already there....but here it is not quite there yet.  I haven't had anything positive to say for the last week or so, so I haven't posted anything...and the silence may continue for awhile as I figure my life out. 

Phew!

A continuation of yesterday's post:

So...today I went and spoke with our CEO and CFO about what I talked about in yesterday's post.  Turns out my boss had only given them information of her choosing to them about what my plans were.  So..now that they know the whole situation, I am no longer in the situation I mentioned before.  Jeesh!  Drama Drama Drama!

Anyways, I am all set up to take my class and test and be on my way out of her office/jurisdiction haha.  YAY! I am so excited!

Thanks for Reading, Charity

Assbags!

So...I have been having some issues at work lately with my boss.  It has almost gotten to the point of harassment.  I can't do ANYTHING right it seems.  Things like: Im doing something with this person...but I "SHOULD really be doing stuff with this person", or I do this but she wants me to do that and then changes her mind the next day to the way it was before and so on and so on.  VERY much on a power trip and it's pissing me off hard core! 
So...a couple weeks agoI decided to take a test to be certified in another area in the hospital.  I talked to my boss about it, she's obviously pissed but pretends to be supportive.  I tell her that after I take my test, I will be putting in my 2 weeks notice but not before I find out that I passed or not.  She says that that's fine and no more is really said.  Today...she calls me into our office and tells me that I need to decide what I am going to do and put in my notice now if I want to do this other job.  That I can't wait to see if I passed my test.  I was just like "exsqueeze me?"   Like that's fair or even legal.  Nope it's not...I asked my husband...who is an attorney!  So...tomorrow I plan on speaking with our CEO/Administrator and seeing what the hell to do.  If they want to just stick it out for another week until I can take my test and find out if I passed/failed that's fine.  If they want to play the other game, that's fine too.  They can't fire me legally, they can't force me to "quit" So they can suck it.  If they want to fire me...they can, I'll slap a wrongful termination suit on them so fast their heads will spin and then I'll collect unemployment.  But they can't make me quit....no way no how.  I have done nothing wrong.  Just a month ago I got outstanding scores on my review...so...try...I dare you! 
Anyways....These are the types of games that our Upper Management tries to play with people and Im not going to fall for it or let them walk all over me.  If I was applying for any other job outside the hospital I would not quit until I know for sure I was hired or not...this is no different than that.  Jerks!

Thanks for Reading, Charity

A Door

This week's Photo Challenge with RAZMATAZ was "Door".  This is an old screen door that I photographed at a "tourist" ranch we visitied last Spring.

Next week's challenge is "Outdoors"  WOO!

Thanks for Reading, Charity